But most of all, I am ready to be comfortable. Yes, Tariq, I just want to be comfortable. Because despite all the routine and all the survival Korean I'm speaking and all the support I have here, my life is not easy. It's not as difficult now and I'm adjusting to changes much quicker than when I first arrived (I've been here 8 months and 1 day). But it's not the same as being surrounded by people who know exactly who you are, who won't be surprised or offended by you in any way, and who want nothing more than for you to be perfectly, through-and-through, you. There have been parts of my personality that have had to take a back seat to respect for others, for other cultures, and other ways of interacting in relationships. I don't begrudge Korea this subtraction it does inside me. In fact, I'm proud that I can adjust and find myself avoiding the typical American expat stereotypes (or so my friends tell me). I think that being able to adapt to other cultures and appreciate them and participate even is a valuable part of me and helps me live here. But it will be nice to not have to think, to calculate, to be careful.
There's no other word. I just can't wait to be comfortable.