I’ve been walking. I’ve been carrying a full pack. Not as much as I should be, but I’m doing it. I’ve taken breaks that I didn’t deserve, but I’ve got blisters on my pinky toes that I’ve earned fair and square. Perhaps one of the reasons I am walking the Camino is because I’m not quite sure I can do it. I have some fraction of confidence; otherwise I wouldn’t be attempting a 500-mile hike in 30 days.

Last week I found my rhythm, my pace. I was on a trail through the mountains close to our home when I realized I’d been walking and not noticing I was walking. I had stopped thinking about everything. I had stopped recounting my faults to myself, stopped paying attention to the ache in my left hip with every step, stopped worrying about how fast I was going, stopped composing imaginary blog posts in my head. I had just stopped everything and had been walking. It was kind of like when you go on a long drive and you realize that you’re much further than you thought, but you don’t remember getting there. It was related to that feeling of progress without being aware of it.

This is not something I think will happen everyday for me. Today, I walked for over an hour before I found a hint of it.

It’s like my body takes over and I don’t have to worry about speed or if I’m going uphill or down. I am learning to listen to my body, to hear it say whether it would like to go a little faster today or if it needs a serious meandering walk today. I don’t want to miss the journey I’m on, because I know that it is the reason I’m going. I’m not walking to get somewhere. I’m walking to become someone and it’s the walking that will get me to that person.

I’ve been challenging myself to walk without music. I am falling in love with the sound of my feet crunching through the dirt and what’s left of the snow on the trails here.

I believe walking is becoming a prayer for me. I’m not sure what I’m asking for yet, and I’m not sure where the answers will take me. But I’ve got my boots on and I’m ready to go.


More Books I've Read! Yahooo!

So here's a new vlog for you guys! Sorry to have been absent for so long. I quit my job on Friday, and I've been hiking and reading and hiking some more. Oh, and eating! But with this whole unemployment thing going on, I should be able to post more often! So, here's what I've done with my free time so far:

I'd also like to draw your attention to some other videos. My sister recently started song sparrow, a duo composed of Holly (the sisda) and her friend Amy. They sing! And they're pretty fantastic! Here's one of their most recent covers, sung amazingly well by MY SISTER. If you love them, go show your support by leaving a lovely comment on their YouTube channel or their Facebook page. Or heck, leave a comment here if you can't be bothered to click on the link. (For shame!) I can't tell you how proud I am of my little sister! I love to listen to that girl sing.

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